I know from the example of my mother and someone else's mother who I am close to that as you near the end of your life, you only remember a-chronological events, events that meant something to you but your don't remember the sequence. This is what happens to Mardana, too, as he nears his end.
remained in his memory, without the interim between them, without the
chronology. What happens to the time in
between, he wondered. And what
happens to the string that holds time linearly, one after the other?Time is not what I thought it was when I was
younger. A different logic holds it together. And soon, very soon, it will end
and I will enter timelessness. How will that be?
Mardana, the main protagonist of The Singing Guru, is finally, at the end of the second in the series of the Sikh Saga, is dying. I am sad about it and that is why it was postponed till the end of the second book. I use the passive tense, 'it was postponed' not 'I postponed it' because the book and the characters have lives of their own. Even now Mardana is resisting dying, like all of us. I will share a few of his thoughts here:
kisee kaa meet na kisee kaa bhaa-ee naa kisai baap na maa-ee: No one has any
friend, or brother, of father or mother,’ Mardana recited Baba’s
What does it mean?
Mardana pondered. We come alone, we
suffer die alone. We are first of all children of MotherFather God. All other
connections are all karmic relationships we have to work out in the
of Life. But we get so attached to the roles we take them too seriously, become
them. Our souls are beyond roles, beyond attachments.