I Don't Want to Die!

LETTING GO MORE AND MORE WHEN MY EGO THROWS A TANTRUM 'I DON'T WANT TO DIE!'

Over the past several years, if not a decade or more, I have had intimations and experiences to shatter my denial that I am aging. 

That I will ever age. 

And die. 

The awareness of this necessity has been at the very edges of my consciousness: how can it not? 

We are programmed to grow old and die. There is nothing secret about it.

When I have lain in my cozy bed, afraid of dying, clutching my fear because my ego has screamed in a childish tantrum, I don’t want to die, I don’t want to die. 

I realize my infantile ego rules me. 

I have to ignore it and let go ever more.