Yesterday,
as I was air drying all my Cashmere sweaters to kill the mold, I said to myself: I am
the slave of someone called Kamla Kapur. She likes to buy stuff and then I have
to take care of it. At first I wanted to rebel and stop being a slave. That
didn’t quite feel right. What? Give away all the sweaters? They are pretty and
keep her warm, too. I am bound to her with my flesh. She already knows how hard
it is getting for me as I age to take care of her stuff, and is buying less.
Well, that is all I need from her – this consideration for and awareness of my
flagging energies. And since some stuff is necessary for life, I will devote
myself to taking care of it, for her. So this morning when I was wondering what
there was to do – I reach such points during the day when the body wants to
move and feel ‘productive,’ – I said to myself, let me be her slave for a few
hours. Since I have to be one – who was it who said in MOBY DICK, ‘who ain’t a
slave’? – why not do it consciously? She is indeed very appreciative and
grateful, and quite willing to lessen my loads.
Are we less of a slave when we reflect on whether we are or not? Are we liberated a bit more when we give up a little more of our stuff...with less to carry.... warming ourselves by the sum radiating within?
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